They’re getting to me. I’ve been waking up with one nearly every day. I haven’t been without one for more than a few hours at a time. It’s getting annoying.

I’ve always had issues with headaches and migraines. Always. So, in some ways I’m used to it (and I’ll take this over the teeth or (potential) ulcer any day) but it doesn’t make it any less annoying. Makes me totally disinterested in doing anything but lying around… which often makes it worse.

My neck has been bothering me lately too. I just prolly need a good massage or something, who knows. Pain in the ass.

I’m an idiot for the ~10 pounds I managed to toss on in Nov and Dec. It’s of course because Otto was sick a bit (which means I can eat anything I want, apparently, ‘tard that I am), and then because after Thanksgiving I decided I didn’t give a fuck anymore. It’s coming off, but really I’m just disappointed in myself for being an utter idiot. Noone needs that much cake, not even me. Know what was totally awesome? Rarely was I actually thinking it was worth it or I was enjoying it. On the bright side, it’s really out of my system now, and I really don’t give a shit if I see cake anymore. I just don’t want it. Now why couldn’t that have happened in November?

Oh well. C’est la vie!

I’m not upset, I’m not angry, I’m not feeling bad… Just disappointed in myself for being a ‘tard, that’s all. And since this is my official place to whine and complain that I’m a complete fucking idiot, I’m gonna do that.

Been clean since the first though. Seriously clean.

Implemented a system, of sorts. And once again, most things aren’t worth it to me to eat. While I’d like to be able to keep track of everything I eat, I also want to be able to snag something out here and there, so I’m keeping my intake simple when out so that I can actually count the approx amounts/cals without needing to be specific.

I can NOT wait till we get the cage set up and shit. Damn I’ll be so happy then. I need to be able to work out at home during the day since I have monday - wednesday and friday some time to work out at home. Come up with a good schedule, get back on the Fatloss2 horse… do a deadlift 1RM… work on my shoulder rehab… set up a place to actually DO yoga… it’s on my nano now, I have no excuse.

If I can only get to the point where I’m actually planning my meals… that would be AWESOME. Then maybe I’d stop forgetting to eat.

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