nervouser and nervouser…

Ugh. I’m sitting here feeling super ultra stressed and anxious… for no apparent reason. My proposal is done, printed, and ready to go. My sources I have questions on are printed and ready to be discussed. While I may not have the kind of sources I’m supposed to have, (most specifically, I still don’t have a book,) I’m ok with that. It won’t be much off, this is only the proposal, not the paper. I have a week to do the paper and I’m fairly sure I can get something together in time to at least be passing. I actually have that much confidence in my ability to write. I may not feel I can get another A, but at least I know I’ll get a C. (hell, even my so-so paper was a solid B.)

I just have no idea what this anxiety is about. I slept like shit last night; I usually do when I have something semi-major due or a test or something… tends to be sitting on my mind all night and quite literally (with no twisting) in my dreams, but I wouldn’t think that could make me this bad off. I thought it was that I hadn’t eaten yet, so I’ve eaten, hopefully I’ll settle down. No sugar to deal with, I’ve been good the past couple days mostly. Certainly yesterday. Not too much caffeine, I’ve been drinking less on that front now that it’s cooler out and I can have tea.

sigh

Deep breaths.
Some positivity.
I’m going to the gym tonite. Maybe I’ll even lift.
I’m going to leave slightly early today, so that the drive/parking doesn’t stress me out.
I’ve typed the last 4 lines nearly perfectly with my eyes closed.
Breathe in, breathe out…
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packing up my bags and some early morning (early for me) yoga should help…..

….yes…. much better. :-)

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