The truth hurts

I am worth nothing.

That one simple truth, I’ve been trying to fight for a fucking decade now….

I am worth nothing.
I bring nothing.
I earn nothing.
I only take away.

I am worth nothing.
I do nothing.
I am nothing.

I do not want this. I thought… I tried to be more. I am not.

There is something wrong with me. With the way I am. I am worth nothing. So there must be something wrong with me.

I am worth nothing.
I am worth less than nothing.
I consume. I use. I do not give.
I am worth less than nothing.

There is something wrong…. There must be something wrong….

With me.
With the way I am.

I must lack.
I must lack something fundamental that makes others worth something while I am not.

I am wrong.

I fear…

I hurt…

I am wrong.

There is something wrong.

I am doing something wrong. I am lacking. I have no worth.

What the fuck is wrong?
What the hell am I doing wrong?
What is it I lack?

There has to be something wrong.
I must have done something wrong.
I must be wrong.

I am bound.
By fear?
By pain?
By regret?

To be worth so little… nothing… nothing at all.

I… ……..

I am worth nothing.
I am worth less than nothing…
I am worthless
I am nothing
but a hole

The truth hurts.
I am worth nothing.
even dead.

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