Domesticity
It’s raining. It’s kinda nice. Rain is the perfect companion to feeling terribly domestic. Some cooking, some cleaning, run a few errands in a bit (don’t really wanna do that part, but I will), and otherwise just chillin, listenin to cds…
There is a lot of crap on my mind, things that I need to sort thru that are not appropriate for here, and sometimes that sucks. It’s what keeps me agitated at times. I can’t get certain things out, so they stay sitting inside, tumbling around, keeping me from sleeping, from truly relaxing, from getting some other things done. I’m starting to work on them, but it’s overwhelming sometimes. I have a need to keep my bad thoughts from others, to not bring them down or depress them when I’m worried about things. When I’m worried I’ve done something wrong, failed to do something I should have done…
But enough of that shit.
Today is my day to clean up to have a halfway decent house to be in this weekend. Which in turn will allow Otto and I to better relax, allow me to get together things that need to be dealt with, and get that moving again.
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I’m debating what to do for the crappy patch in front of the house. Not the dead zone, I think that will require some hardy sunloving bushes or somthing… but the 12′ishx16′ patch where we pulled out the bushes. I have no clue what will be better… sod or stone. Sod I think will be cheaper, since even if stone is the same amount per square yard, depth is an issue, we’d need a few inches at least. But sod means I’d have to mow, and more importantly, trim that area.
Considering that I’d like to toss stone down along the sides of the house, I think sod would be best in that area.
I want a fence. Mostly just to piss off our encroachers (both of them), but also because I’d use the back yard more if I didn’t feel on display.
I think I might head out soon so I can get crap outside done and come back here and not have to go out. I look like absolute crap tho. PO and bank… if I do it soon, I don’t have to go in at either one, so I’ll not need to worry about the way I look (and perhaps smell).
I have to go eat an apple now.