bored in the barrel

How the hell do I always end up doing this to myself?
I have a paper due tonite for history. I had one due last week too. Last monday, as I was scrambling to research, write, document and cite a 3 page paper due at midnight, I said I wouldn’t do it next time. [...]

I get into math today, and my instructor says last class had snacks, and we should help ourselves. I look and there I see some minicupcakes, chips, and generic, store brand pop.
And, I didn’t want any. And it had nothing to do with cutting or the challenge (and my 104 clean eats I’m [...]

Well, 1 week on drugs… damn, not sure I can keep this up. The first few nights, I was out like a light very soon after taking. Now… not so much so. I’m back to having to meditate or listen to music, and music isn’t guaranteed to get me to sleep. [...]

ah, great….
Officially started on drugs…. that kick my ass. Spent the majority of the day tired and unable to really wake up till after noon. HA. if this doesn’t get better, a new option will have to be used. I know I’m easily sedated… but come on… this is a bit [...]

Well, since my MRI came back normal… we’ve gone into treatment stage… figuring if we don’t know what is wrong, we can at least try and treat the symptoms. So, after a good EKG, we’ve started with medication. It’s prescribed for nerve pain and sleeping problems. Since I don’t have pain per [...]

Is very hard. I mean, I know that nothing bad will be found from my scan… but… what if? I know it’s been years, and I know if something was really wrong with me it would have manifested by now. I mean, what kind of illness takes 8 years to [...]

At least not all is bad.
After a chat with my doc, and deciding that the neurologist has been less helpful than we were hoping… we’re doing another MRI without bothering with the neuro this time. And, wonder of wonders, I don’t have to wait for 3 weeks for the scan like I [...]

I don’t get it. What the hell is wrong with people? Everyone I know, at any other school, ANYWHERE, has no trouble getting crap with financial aid. Me? I can’t seem to get anything but books. Even the fucking required calculator and crap. Sigh, after 2 days and a [...]

OOOWWWIIEE!
My arms and chest and abs are finally feeling tuesday night. My legs are funny… it made my hammies feel better, but now my quads hurt… but odly… I think I may have a slight ouchie nonDOMS related, but oh well.
It’s physioball and elasticity tonite, I’ll prolly add cardio since I didn’t do it [...]

I don’t get it.
I really don’t. I don’t understand the need to push one’s beliefs, whatever it may be, on another. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll warn someone about something being hot or sharp if they seem to be planning to touch it… and I would appreciate the same… But I don’t [...]